It's been awhile new friend

My ASVAB is this Wednesday.

I'm thinking about it. Enlisting.

Hell if I know. I've grown tired of where I live. It's boring. But I mean I expect every guy, hell every girl, my age has sad that at some point in time. I think it's time for me to get the hell out of here. I'm 18. I'm wasting my time sitting around, waiting for a student loan to come through, so I can go to a god damned community college.

What the hell. I never saw myself in this position when I was younger. No one to blame but myself really. I fucked up in highschool. not so much with the classes. The people I hung out with, were lazy. Absurdly apathetic. I figured I'd just do as they do.

Spend my senior year chilling and playing video games, and just go to LMC, then move on from there. Don't know where we'd move on from there, but we would have gone somewhere. Probably down the street to the Best Buy and work there till we made manager.

But now here I am. Had a falling out with that group of friends just over a year ago. and wasted my schooling this past year by not attending. and now here I am. Waiting for a student loan approval that will never come, and counting down the days until my ASVAB test.

But will I do it? I mean the more and more I think about it, the more I realize if I go this route with the military, it'll give my life some sort of path. I don't mean some "noble calling" type of a path, more of a "give me something, anything to do instead of this" path.

Think about it. Take this ASVAB. Place high on it. then start working out, get in shape for boot camp. it sounds tempting. I've been needing some sort of motivation to get healthy. and nothing like the impending deadline of bootcamp to motivate a bastard.

This is weird, because when I was younger, I wanted to be in the army, but I was afraid to do so, because I figured the friends I'd make in the service would be killed. But then I grew up to be an introverted fool, so why not.

Yeah fuck, I'm going for it. Three years in. Free school. Just gotta learn to dodge bullets.