Just a quick post

I'm sitting here, waiting for my mom to drive me to Holland, so I can take a drug test, to go work w/ my dad for the summer. I'm still not sure how I feel about spending an entire summer with him. But that's nothing new. "Oh wow, a teen aged guy who has issues with his dad, what a surprise."

Well, at least it's money.

I spent last week at Neil and Bryces' place. It was pretty chill and cool. I felt like at the end of the visit, I was getting on their nerves. Mainly cause it's a cluttered apartment, and I slept on the couch, so I was constantly in with everyone. All well.

I'm planning on going back to Ann Arbor a couple times this summer, to see them, and hang out and such. It should be pretty cool.


Pride is end of June, I'm thinking about taking the train down from Holland, and meeting up with Noah and company, if they decide to go to Pride. That'll be fun, I enjoyed it last year.

Kayla's dating someone else. I'd be a shitty ass liar if I said I wasn't kinda bummed about it. But she's happy, so it's all good.

I've got a sore throat atm. And it's bothering the hell out of me. All well.

Hopefully my dad and I won't be butting heads all summer long. Cause I really don't think I could stay there if I did. I find it...idk, rather interesting, maybe a bit sad, that it's been well over two years since I've spent more then a weekend with him. When I think about it, it does make me rather sad that I don't spend a lot of time with him. I mean he chose to live in Holland, to go to work, so he could support the lot of us. And yet, I can hardly stand to be in the same room as him. It's not that he's a bad person. He's really cool, and what not. It's just that the decisions I've made over the past few years have disappointed him, and there's a constant tension whenever we're together. It's a shame I've made him disappointed in me.


But he has another son, who can, and is well on his way to be, the golden child.


On the other hand, I think this summer in Holland will be good for me. It's not Baroda, or Ann Arbor. So I'm not going to be haunted there.

It's ridiculous, but I can hardly sleep in my own bed now. You all really shouldn't have to wonder why.

I'm scared I won't pass this drug test. I took an ambien a couple nights ago, to help me get to sleep, and I'm afraid it'll be on the list of banned substances, which will really suck, because I would have had no idea.

Well, here's to a better tomorrow, and a forgotten yesterday, cheers